Interwined fate

2011-04-18T05:31:00.000+08:00

Shit how long have i not updated?

Well its alright ,
I'm busy with my stuff , its a valid excuse .=]
Anyway have you guys heard of this epic song called what are words by Chris medina? Epic. Is ttly awesome!.

2011-03-25T23:00:00.002+08:00

Im sorry .
I really am.

Walk on water (Liquid Mountaineering)

2011-03-23T22:23:00.000+08:00

I can achieve the impossible.

2011-03-23T21:12:00.000+08:00

Have you ever felt like . You did something but others saw it a different way?
Because now i do .

I feel like im on the verge of breaking down again .

Fate , i hate you for denying me what i've wanted.
Fate , i love you for giving me a chance.
Fate, maybe you didnt know this. But i've already won ya know. Perhaps you thought that you had succeeded in stripping me down to nothing again after giving me some things.
Perhaps , you thought , it'd be funny , you know .
To give me a skill , and render it useless at the most crucial time.
Perhaps you'd thought it'd be beautiful to hurt me again.
But hey darling ,
you wanna know something . Fate , since i was young , i always sulked that .
You always took things away from me.
Always unhappy ive lost things ive needed the most.
But now, i know , you can take away anything and everything you want.
I'll take them back like the man i am. =).

2011-03-23T21:06:00.003+08:00

You've misunderstood.

Seriously , misunderstood.

2011-03-19T20:02:00.002+08:00

Finally found the will to let you go.
Goodbye ;).

2011-03-16T23:27:00.001+08:00

2011-03-16T23:07:00.000+08:00

Theres a part of me that wants to give up on someone who doesnt talk or care.
Then theres a part of me who loves that person oh so very much for me to do something i cant bear.

Sigh its the holidays , even though its a tad bit more relaxing than normal school days , i still feel very tensed from the prospect of having to perform for o levels and my SPA. Really , just what does the future hold in store for me? I dont wanna be a very rich man or a very influential one , i want a humble life , carefree of worries . I know it sounds impossible , but ill figure it out ;).

For now , i guess i just gotta try to work hard and get my A's for my O's . X)..

English - B3/A2
E Maths - A1
A maths - A2
Chemistry - A2/A1
Physics - A2/A1
Combined humanities - A2/B3

L1R5 - 10-11

I really hope i can score 10 ~ 11...

Do I?

2011-03-12T23:49:00.002+08:00

Baby, what are we becoming?
It feels just like we're always running
Rolling through the motions every day

I could lean in to hold you
Or act like I don't even know you
Seems like you could care less either way

What happened to that girl I used to know?
I just want us back to the way we were before

Do I turn you on at all when I kiss you baby?
Does the sight of me wanting you drive you crazy?
Do I have your love? Am I'm still enough?
Tell me, don't I? Or tell me, do I, baby

Give you everything that that you ever wanted?
Would you rather just turn away and leave me lonely?
Do I just need to give up and get on with my life?
Baby, do I?

Remember when we didn't have nothing
But a perfect simple kind of loving?
Baby, those sure were the days

There was a time our love ran wild and free
But now I'm second guessing everything I see.

Baby, do I still give you what you need?
Still take your breath away?
Light up the spark way down deep?
Baby, do I?

2011-03-12T19:34:00.000+08:00

Why dont you ever appreciate me ,
Why dont you ever think about me.
Why dont you ever approach me.

Yeah im sad and weak,
Yes im always lousy.
Yes im never there for you.

Its that how you see me?
Is that what i am to you?
Do you care?

Or am i just another pollen among the millions scattered by the wind .

2011-03-11T21:11:00.001+08:00

I hope ive made the right choice.
I must find determination to succeed.. ='),

For tears that fall. Time till crawl.

2011-03-09T05:19:00.000+08:00

Just another sleepless night has passed. Damn , time is passing so fast.
I remember all the times when i let my tears and blood fall, time would crawl.
So why is it that when i'm happy and actually contented , with laughters filling the hall , time would just flit through the door?

I know i haven't been updating frequently. I want to .
I just ran out of things to blog for awhile . Even till now , i dont really have much to blog about . =]
I was thinking of a few personal things .
I'm not sure if i should wait and wait on .
Or just give up , get up and move along .

Its a neither nor scenario that makes it so frustrating .
Neither this nor that would solve my problem.
Ah, good old dilemmas , how i missed the days you would fill my head and force a rational response out of me.

Just as i miss the days where all my responses were actually pretty rational.
I'm running my life no longer based on logic. But on emotions.
I've never been the type to succumb to that =] . I wonder what has happened to me.

Have i put on my mask for so long , that now, when it is time to take it off, it has already been attached to my face?
Perhaps it is time to be that ice cold murderer again .
Begone , Mr. =)

2011-03-03T05:10:00.002+08:00

Oscar.
You are strong.
You are mighty.
You can do it.
You will not crumble.
You will emerge a champion.
You will pull through your difficulties.
You will exceed .
You will be successful.
Yes you will. And yes you must.

2011-03-03T05:06:00.000+08:00

Man ive become one busy dude. Crap.

Hey you know what?
I still cant get you outta my mind even though i have all these crap full on my hands.
You and your wicked sick ideas. Emails. sheesh.
Take care of yourself =] ,
Loves.

2011-03-01T18:58:00.001+08:00

Im a little disappointed.
But ill get back up and start moving forward.

2011-02-27T22:59:00.003+08:00

What happened to the girl i once i knew before.
Are you ignoring me . Do you think im judging you ?
Are you cross with me ? Do you think ive said something wrong?
Are you annoyed at me ? Do you think i dont understand you anymore?

I gave up everything that you ever wanted .

Dear mum

2011-02-27T14:56:00.003+08:00

Thank you for putting me through all these hell for so long,
And then i thank you for calling me a rubbish ,

saying that im useless.

You think im happy with this half ass shitty life everyday?
To deal with all the hypocrisy
Sometimes i really wish i could find the courage to open my window and jump ten stories down to my death.
I wonder if you'll be happy that a burden has actually got off your shoulders.

Unfortunately for you ,
i'm too much of a pussy to end my life here and then.
Dont worry , you still have the chance of having a car knocking me to my death.

But until then,
i apologise for having to be your piece of rubbish ,

You thought you understood me didnt you?
You thought you always knew what was going on in my head.
You thought you had figured me out.
Thought that you were smarter and i'd never understand .

Well, you thought wrong .
I've came to realise many things while i was alone in my room.
Sorry, I'm no longer the kid that can only break down and cry.
Because of the things ive been through , even if it is insignificant ,
its made me grow, its made me think.
All the mistakes that ive done in my life has come to me , finally.
As learning experiences,
And like all learning experiences ,
they will teach me to grow and to triumph over you insignificant beings.

When i lost , i learn how i lost.
And then i keep losing until i win .
Sorry, but im not a half assed kids like my classmates out there.
Respect that ;).

You want to pretend that you're fulfilling your duty,
i'll pretend that im fulfilling mine .

2011-02-26T16:31:00.002+08:00

OMG Common test are over! I am relieved . Anyone wanna go out?
Crap i hurt my shoulder bad . What a whim.

2011-02-23T05:38:00.000+08:00

You're like the moon i gaze in the night.
So far , never in my grasp. Yet forever in my sight.

I try to forget you're ever there,
Yet whenever i look up you'll be there.

I cant run from you,
I cant reach to you.

Baby, what do i do.

2011-02-21T00:17:00.000+08:00

Semi studying semi slacking for common test.
You know i was thinking about what i wanna be in the future, for some strange absurd reason,
i dont have the drive to be a phychriatrist anymore. The thought that once so excited me doesnt some that fun anymore . Maybe i should work for the police with a degree in criminal psychology =].

Then again , being in the police would mean i would have little time to spend with my girlfriend if i had one in the future . And i dont really want to become a police in singapore too even though the pay for a police in singapore is good . Ah , dilemma over my future jobs always never fails to kill my brain cells .

Hey have you guys ever asked yourself , deep down, who are your true friends . The ones who appear concerned when you're feeling down , or the ones who are constantly around you . Or the ones who flit in and out of your life but are never there when you truly need em even though you like em ? So complicated.

Why is life so complex ? And why am i the only one who finds life so complex =( . Am i the only who one who engages in self thought or something ? Nobody seems to understand what i say or give stupid answers like : ' Those are questions only god can answer ' . Maybe thats why my name means god in old English uh..

Its time i use all my ear piercings , and im thinking of getting a tattoo behind my ear after Secondary . Hmm =]

2011-02-20T02:38:00.001+08:00

Is my life to live
or do i live for life?

2011-02-19T16:50:00.001+08:00

COMMON TEST BUSY!

2011-02-19T16:49:00.000+08:00

Its funny how i can promise i didnt lie about a promise i lied about.

Love

2011-02-16T01:16:00.002+08:00

Because of a recent event that has occurred in my life,
it has caused me to reevaluate all my current philosophies and angles towards what we call life.
After countless hours of brainstorming in class while lessons are being conducted,
I have come up with 3 immediate changes .

1) Life throws everything it has at you, then it stops and sits back to watch the show.

This is so immediately proven wrong. Firstly, life never stops putting things in your way. Be it that you are crawling in life , or even if ure sprinting through life in full speed. It will flunk things constantly on your road of life while you're trespassing it . To understand this , imagine that before i came to understand this concept , i thought life was a graph with 2 variables , x and y ( rate of life and time ) . Now i understand its a graph with 3 variables . x , y and z ( rate of life , time and events ) . And new events are constantly appearing , its just that some are so insignificant you dont realise. Or , you dont understand its value till later.
Dont understand what i said ? Stop, breathe , read again . Still dont understand? Ask me.

Ok , for the second change in my little philosophies of life.

2) I used to think that when you express concern for people, its through constant contact, like saying ' How are you everday ' and so on so forth . And i used to believe that , without doing this , the feelings or emotions felt for a person will eventually diminish . Hence , i used to think that interaction = feelings , but now i realised its not true . Interaction = the feelings needed to bond, now thats true to a certain extent.

You see , there has been this little person i'd like to call A whose completely never appeared in my random web of thoughts before . But one day A appears, and i realised , jesus christ , what would i actually do if i had a certain chance of E happening . Where E is an event im not going to share. So really, while constant interaction is required to maintain a healthy relationship , it doesnt mean that you need constant interaction to realise you love or have feelings for a person . Capish?

My last change i would like to make . My own definition of love.

Some say ,

But to be honest,
Love is that sudden impulse in your heart everything you think of a person.
This impulse drives you to do crazy things you would never dream off.
This feeling , it breaks down all rational thinking , and you do only what would portray your love for the person .
Dear god, you wanna know what i think love is?
I think , love is the feeling of redemption that you made for us to realise that in this world of hate, there'd actually be little things that our evil hearts and mind twist to satisfy ,
Thats just my own definition of love of course.
It drives us crazy~!

2011-02-15T20:56:00.002+08:00

I have realised blogger is my place to get the thoughts outta outta outta my head.

Baby, what are we becoming
It feels just like we’re always running
Rolling through the motions everyday
I can lean in to hold you, or act like I don’t even know you
Seems like you could care less either way
What happened to that girl I used to know
I just want us back to the way we were before

Do I turn you on at all when I kiss you baby,
Does the sight of me wanting you drive you crazy,
Do I have your love? Am I still enough?
Tell me don’t I, or tell me do I baby
Give you everything that you ever wanted
Would you rather just turn away and leave me lonely?
Do I just need to give up and get on with my life

2011-02-14T22:37:00.001+08:00

Just to relive my memories ,

i will put myself through pain.

DSALDJSKADASLDD

2011-02-14T21:54:00.001+08:00

Ok, im officially cooled down.

Because after a whole day of thinking , biting my lower lips till it bled.

I realised. After all , we were world's apart before . We will be world's apart again.

There's no point in all this is there.
Thanks for saying hi and throwing my life into chaos for one day.

But hey baby, Im Mr.CoolGuy. Nothing fazes me for more than one day.

OH! And i remembered something ...

my god

2011-02-14T16:49:00.003+08:00

Oh my god. After one full day of boring school , as usual,
i finally have something to post about.
Since i dont wanna name names.
Lets just call dumb boy A and girl B.
So i was sitting, doing my own work while my thoughts were running in background.
When something actually caught my attention.
I saw A shout at B because B said something about A.
And then i thought , this is so ungentlemanly.
When i thought it could'nt get worst . I mean, seriously?
A started throwing things at B. And with the intention to hurt.
I mean, A, seriously , its bad enough to have negative EQ. And im not trying to be a
saint here. Im a pretty nasty guy myself.

But to use physical force and shout at a girl? Man, are you a

my god

2011-02-14T16:49:00.001+08:00

shopping and MY HEART

2011-02-14T05:14:00.001+08:00

Harro.

Yesterday , for since a long time , i went shopping for watches and a few valentines gifts =]

Bought things that really satisfied me =) . Although... it came at. Quite the wallet killer . Haha

Anyway, this is a post dedicated to you,

And ill call it .. MY HEART

You know what heart,

now its my brain asking you,

firstly, w'sup with you and your feelings huh,

you make me release tears,

you make me feel so suffocated i drop to my knees,

at times you make me feel like its me against the world,

of course there are warm and fuzzy times too.

I'm not complaining , but keep it a notch down will ya?

I'm getting old , i cant cope with you , the Heart,

and all of the world's problems too.

And seriously,

w'sup with you and your value over things.

To make all of us happier. HEART, i give you this advice , choose one.. Stick with her forever. =)

2011-02-13T15:20:00.001+08:00

You know what?
I think . You have one small dick. And you chose the wrong guy to be your enemy =).

2011-02-13T15:04:00.000+08:00

Lets keep walking forward together. And forget about all the sad things in life.

2011-02-13T14:47:00.000+08:00

Hello , yeah i did promise i would update today so here goes =].

I know this is the common test week and all that shiz,

but recently I've been immersing myself in more thoughts than usual.

Because of a rather unusual change in my life,

i seem to have a rather different perspective of things now .

And its not that i ain't happy or that I'm constantly sad,

its more like i feel there isn't a need to be superficially happy anymore.

=] Have you ever felt like sometimes you just AINT in the mood to be smiling,

then someone important to you comes up and you KNOW you have to smile,

even if its a fake one on your face .

Well, I'm through that . I've decided that if the people around me are truely friends,

then there's no need to go all hysterically happy in front of them =).

You know whats been bugging me ?

People like to say things like : You have no life.

This my big question to you losers : What exactly is life ? Does poking ur big nose into my business gives you more life than me? =)

Something worth thinking about isn't it .

Oh , and by the way , I'm just human . Capish?

2011-02-13T00:36:00.001+08:00

Now i need a place where i can pour my thoughts and the first place my mind thought off..

Blogger =].

Hello people . Its been a long time since i redid my blogger .

I have been too busy with other stuff =].

Now im feeling lighter enough to redo this place .

Its the CT period so dont expect me to update with super long post .

But ill update more tmr .

Life often expects us to bring out our best or it'll crush us to the ground.

I'm sorry im not good for enough for you. I'm just a average guy, no matter how good you expected me to be.
If its love you wanted, i could give you more and most.

If its my heart you wanted, i would have given you everything.

If its my life you wanted, i would have gladly give it up for you.

But why is it that its only my company you want, and only when you're lonely?

2010-10-17T14:41:00.000+08:00

The air hung with strong anticipation,

some faces showing signs of excitement,

others prefer to be nonchalant.

'You may go now' was the words she said.

The atmosphere exploded into a chorus of cheers.

Exams. Are. Over.

Ive been doing alot of thinking.

And i wish i could reverse the past.

Make the wish thats came true last.

2010-08-25T20:59:00.000+08:00

Today i found out a majority of my results even though im @ home.
I must say, despite knowing i hadnt put in the best of my efforts, im a little disappointed myself.
Shrugs, its just CT. But we must reflect upon ourselves.
Learn from our mistakes, and make the best of the future.
We leave not regrets , as winners, we leave legacies behind.
People remember us for our deeds which we have done well,
and not for the deeds we have failed to accomplish.

Everyone, plus travail dur pour the choses vous voulez à accomplissez.

Let us forge a better tommorow together.

2010-08-22T22:38:00.000+08:00

I swear im going to work hard.

i love you, baby,

And if it's quite alright,

I need you, baby,

To warm a lonely night.

I love you, baby.

Trust in me when I say:Oh, pretty baby,

Don't bring me down, I pray.

Oh, pretty baby, now that I found you, stay

And let me love you, baby.Let me love you.

You're just too good to be true.

Can't take my eyes off you.

You'd be like Heaven to touch.

I wanna hold you so much.

At long last love has arrived

And I thank God I'm alive.

You're just too good to be true.

Can't take my eyes off you.

Pardon the way that I stare.

There's nothing else to compare.

The sight of you leaves me weak.

There are no words left to speak,

But if you feel like I feel,

Please let me know that it's real.

You're just too good to be true.

I cant take my eyes off you.

2010-08-22T22:36:00.001+08:00

Somebody save me. please?

2010-08-10T00:07:00.000+08:00

When there's so many things to do,
When other's calling you a fool,
When your friends are working you off like a tool.
When life brings you all the way down too.
Lets add to the list, what will you do?

2010-08-04T17:19:00.000+08:00

Afraid of love building up,
then let it all crash down.
Afraid of facing the truth,
afraid of the falling roof.

I've been happy,
i've been sad,
but nothing could compare,
to the time with you ive had.

Though it pains to let you know,
and though it pains me more than it shows,
im sorry but sometimes things have to be let go.

I know whats coming if nothing's changed,
and i love you and dont want to see you take the pain.

Goodbye =(.

2010-08-02T19:21:00.000+08:00

Knock knock, whose there?
The past
Past who?
Past you.
Damn you past, cause i love you.

2010-08-01T00:30:00.000+08:00

8 years ago

Me: Daddy daddy, does superman exist?

Dad: Yes they do dear, in every one of us, there will always be a superman who will save us when we need help.

Me: * Stares *

Dad: Right now im your superman, when you need help ill be there for you, but when you grow older your superman will be someone special, someone whom you know you can trust your life with.

Me: So happy ever endings are real then?

Daddy: Only if you believe son, only if you believe..

Wheres my super~~man~~ I want a superwoman. X)

2010-07-24T22:38:00.000+08:00

As promised, hwai mun,

Here's your post on DEALING WITH REJECTION.

4 words,

1 phrase.

Get up, move on.

2010-07-24T15:27:00.000+08:00

不要为了小事而哭，
世界上不只是你会伤心。
你知不知道我为了你哭了多少泪吗？

不要再让我难过了。

2010-07-24T02:01:00.001+08:00

And so the decreed has been passed that love is blind,

im giving EVERYTHING ive worked for for ,

just for this time.

What happened to all my ego , that would always tell me:

' She's not the one '.

What happened to my confidence, that would scream to me:

' There'll be a next one '

With nothing to do,

i decided to browse through,

Shocked with the choice ive made,

I wonder how long will i be able to keep falling for love's bait.

Normally i'd like to remain sober,

But this time,

I'd rather stay INTOXICATED.

by you.

2010-07-22T18:51:00.001+08:00

Stuck in the cycle of love again,
i never thought it would be possible.

2010-07-22T18:39:00.000+08:00

And now you've caught my heart,
its in a prison and it cant escape.
So why is it im so happy? X)

Eminem - Recovery - Space Bound [LYRICS]

2010-07-18T13:31:00.000+08:00

2010-07-17T23:06:00.000+08:00

To : XXXXXX

You had your chance,
you lost ur footing.
You fell,
i didnt turn and pick you up.
I simply moved on.

2010-07-16T23:50:00.000+08:00

Welcome to my humble little world.
Enjoy your stay as long as you wish.
And do know that i love you , my little fish =)

2010-07-14T19:12:00.000+08:00

Fleeting glances,
of ur time in lessons.
Heart aches,
really, almost breaks.

Can i trust you?
Or will love just fall through.

2010-07-14T04:54:00.001+08:00

And so they lived happily ever after.

2010-07-12T19:33:00.000+08:00

Do give us some space to breathe
Dont choke me nor her with questions D=.

2010-07-10T22:14:00.001+08:00

I'm not someone you can just disrespect,

How would you feel if you were in my shoes?

Feelin' used, with a heart bruised

Inconsolable~

2010-07-10T00:47:00.000+08:00

Shall thou describe thee to a cooling summer day?

I close the door
Like so many times,
so many times before
Filmed like a scene on the cutting room floor
I'm gonna let you walk away tonight
Without a word
I try to sleep,
But the clock is stuck on thoughts of you and me
A thousand more regrets unraveling,
If you were here right now,
I swear,
I´d tell you this

'Baby, I don't want to waste another day
Keeping it inside it's killing me
Cause all i ever want, it comes right down to you
I'm wishing I could find the words to say
Baby I would tell you every time you leave
I'm inconsolable' .

2010-07-09T00:32:00.001+08:00

Ok its official.
im in love.

Baby you're the one

2010-07-07T19:26:00.001+08:00

Baby theres things ill never know,
But a thing i know for sure,
is that you're the one.
Cause the small things u do ,
tearing me up like i never knew u could.

Stop to listen,
Stay to look.
I wanna say : Hey i love you,
Baby really i wish i could.

The things you do,
you break my heart up into pieces too.
I cant bear to watch,
cos i feel like im burning away non stop.

2010-07-05T17:06:00.000+08:00

Because eventually all love ends and we'll be nothing but dust.

Because even eternal love cant last.

2010-07-05T00:59:00.001+08:00

So you're keeping quiet,
and im keeping mum.
I wanna talk to you,
but everytime i do you run.

Is this my fault?
Or are you simply treating me like a dog.
Love can say what words cant do.
But now all im feeling is nothing but a fool.

Let me know how you feel,
im waiting to go for the kill...

Hey it hurts to leave me in the silence , so spare me .
Im just human, though i hide my feelings warily.

2010-07-04T00:28:00.001+08:00

Ok ive decided not to upload any pics containing me because im so fugly in all of them ( basically in real life too, yeah i know. Im not delusional ) =D.
Uploading the vocaloids pics instead.
Thanks for letting me tag along even though im from a different anime <3.>

Zong man, chio- i know.

Believe or not im too lazy to upload the rest after 2 pics. -.-
So ill go on and talk instead =).

Ive been thinking about this for a long time now.

What defines good looks?
Is it the person we are in the inside?
Or the glamour we show on the outside?

And then ive finally found the answer on Cultural fiesta night.
Ill just post about what i truly feel.

This marks the 6th month with 3C.
Throughout this 6 months ive made numerous unforgettable friends,
made some unevitable mistakes, also earning me some enemies.
Though more or less i feel mutual towards all feelings to me,
There's just this one person ive been noticing more often,
and ill be frank,
its a girl ( Duh, oscar isnt a gay . ).

First day of 3C,
she was the first friend i knew.
Infactual towards her or not,
i do not know. ( God knows i have a fickle heart , though i do treasure my friends )

Throughout these months,
ive been flipping through my dictonary for a vocaulary to describe her.
But i only found the word during CFN.

I think she's nice
but she hasnt been extra nice to me,
she's pretty to me,
but not godly pretty.
i do like her
but some people dont like her.

Although once in awhile i do see the ugly side of her,
ive decided , its just flaws in a person that makes us love a person more.
Because eventually we learn to appreciate the person's strong points and not his/her con.

To the girl,
thank you for always keeping my ego in place.
For telling me the truth about how you feel,
being a great friend,
always there for me,
fierce on the outside,
yet softer then soft in the inside.

The word im going to use to describe you would be shadow.

Shadow meaning 5 - A constant companion.

Thank you.

She walks by moonlight
No one really knows
Enchanted starlight
Never going home.

2010-07-02T22:22:00.001+08:00

Ahh.
Cultural fiesta night,
why did it have to rain?!

Will be uploading pictures soon ;3

2010-07-02T02:30:00.000+08:00

Everyone needs a break,
between comfort and work,
theres just a thin line.

Let the caged bird fly,
or else dont cry when it die.

2010-06-27T20:48:00.000+08:00

Tommorow is the end of a holiday,
the beginning of a new school day.
It just seems like yesterday,
that the holidays began .

Ill see you again.
We'll start as friends.

2010-06-22T02:18:00.003+08:00

=D. Life's packed

Suddenly i just dont want to go.

2010-06-21T13:50:00.000+08:00

HIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII ^^

2010-06-20T22:33:00.000+08:00

Ok, so i have like..

3-4 months till AFA and EOY.

3-4 months must save -- 1000 ( my goal 180 X 4 + 150 x 4 is the maximum i can save too D-, which is 1320 dollars.).

what i need to buy - Ulquirra's coat ( 180 NIA )
Ulquirra's wig ( 100 NIA )
Ulquirra's cheap make up items : (200-300?) unsure
1) A toner
2) moisturizer
3) Foundation
4) Concealer
5) Base AND Lose powder
6) Black AND Green eyeliner
7) Black brow pencil
8) Make up removers

ok, so this is for EOY cos event ( total cost -> 480-580 )

And then , now Nessa wants me to join her D.gray man team.
Which means.. Another 200-300 more for the suit + wig.
Not to mention all the RAW MATERIAL cost for my weapons for both occasions ( 50-100 )

Which amounts too.... 630 ( at minumum ) --> 980 ( at maximum ) D=.

Of course, im looking for CHEAPER alternatives <3.

2010-06-20T19:35:00.001+08:00

After so many days of choosing, selecting and browsing.

Ive finally decided i will do... ulquirroa as cosplay during EOY.

Damn ex uh, but ill try my best to make it possible =).

2010-06-19T01:36:00.000+08:00

XxxXxxxx-sama,
Kawaii desu ne.

オスカー様 XxxXxxxx.
ラブあなたのような怒って .

2010-06-18T21:50:00.001+08:00

Went to maid cafe today uh..
Every man's dream LOL.
Saw Vernice first day being a maid,
she damn cute you know.
DAMN DAMN DAMN nervous. LOL.

2010-06-16T00:37:00.000+08:00

Now you've got me hooked.
Urgh.
Each lover @ the door,
another heartache till i drop till the floor.

2010-06-14T00:47:00.000+08:00

Watching you from across the room
sends searing pain through my heart.
I think back to a year ago,
when I thought we'd never part.
My love for you just won't die down -
it just grows with each new day.
I wish you'd dare to look at me
and hear what I have to say;
"I love you and I want you back - "
but these words you just won't hear.
You don't seem to remember them -
all the memories I hold dear.
You were my first kiss,
my first love
and now you don't even care.
How could you just blow it away?
We were the perfect pair.
you seem content to let me go -
You're doing fine as you are,
while I'm still missing how we were.
We had the best love by far.

Painful love

2010-06-12T11:24:00.001+08:00

Wah yesterday drama.
Here's a short recount.

8AM --> Message from SUHASINI
Message: Hey dude you still wanna study tgt?
Me: Looks @ the clock. Mutters to myself , : fuck no. * goes back to sleep *

11AM--> Message from SUHASINI
Message: You're not replying i wont leave my house.
Me: Message back : Lets postpone to wednesday....
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Message from Daryl
Message: Bla bla bla bla band concert bla bla bla.
Me: * Stares @ the 2 words. *
Me: OH F**K , WHATS THE TIME?! * Glances @ clock *.
OH F**K , GOTTA GO GET MY CONTACTS @ 12!

* Early morning drama ( brush teeth bla bla bla ). *

* Arrives @ my wardrobe *

Me: What to wear? Suit? Shirt ? T - shirt ?
* decides to buy something to wear on my way to the concert *

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

* SKIPS TO 6.45PM * ( got alot drama in between , but im lazy )

CALL FROM DARYL : Eh, you got ticket anot?
Me: No, thought photographers dont need ticket?
Daryl : Now they say no ticket cannot go in .
Me:* thinks : Holy shit.. *
Me: Kk i go settle call you later..
* Calls emergency hotline , ms karen wong *

* SKIPS TO 7 PM *

* Flashes my ticket -> Ms Wongs ticket -..- * and got in
* Recieved a sms from SUHASINI *
Message: Hey dude you got in? We were going to smuggle you in with our tickets.
Me : * touched O.o... *

* During the concert *

*Enjoyed Enjoyed*
Yentl : Lets take some photographs ! =D
Me: Kk you use my cam take ba.
Yentl : * Snap Snap *
A WOMAN FROM VCH : YOU CANNOT TAKE PHOTO, YOUR SHUTTLE VERY NOISY.
Me: * Prepares to excersize middle finger *
Yentl : Eh, dont...
Me: * poor unfit middle finger -.- *

* After the concert *

*SMS frenzy.*
* dinner with yentl fiona zong man *
* go home, tired , slept *

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Really enjoyed the concert, good job band =).

2010-06-10T13:48:00.000+08:00

You disappoint me.
This feels so wrong. Like a place i cant breathe.
Words can say what actions can't do.

2010-06-10T02:27:00.000+08:00

Because from now on ill be nothing but a devil thats fallen.

I realised today maybe all that i worked for these years were wrong.

All the things ive painfully mastered has all been mistaken,

misused for ,

mistreated.

I came to realise all these years of honing my skill,

attending courses,

sitting for lectures.

They have all been in vain.

because in the end they did not serve their purpose.

And even still they made a culling blade so deep.

It hurt us both.

H___ __n , im sorry for all that ive done.

If there is anyway i can do to repay the grave mistakes.

Please feel free to let me know.

This broken tongue cant cut anymore, instead it will serve the purpose of defending.

Defending you.

2010-06-08T23:24:00.000+08:00

I hope the things you say will come true.
I'm sorry for the things ive done,
Ive messed up my life,
wasted 3 years of your life.
Many if one day this thing could end...

Do you know that looking @ you still makes my heart beat so fast?
tearing me up, from inside, thats what you do best woman.

2010-06-07T18:57:00.000+08:00

I'll be there for you
These five words
I swear to you
When you breathe
I want to be the air for you
I'll be there for you
I'd live and I'd die for you
Steal the sun from the sky for you
Words can't say what a love can do
I'll be there for you
I know you know we've had some good times
Now they have their own hiding place
I can promise you tomorrow
But I can't buy back yesterday
And Baby you know my hands are dirty
But I wanted to be your valentine
I'll be the water when you get thirsty,
It's hard for me to say the things
I want to say sometimes
There's no one here but you and me
And that broken old street light
Lock the doors
We'll leave the world outside
All I've got to give to you
Are these five words when I
Thank you for loving me
For being my eyes
When I couldn't see
For parting my lips
When I couldn't breathe
Thank you for loving me
I never knew I had a dream
Until that dream was you
When I look into your eyes
The sky's a different blue
Cross my heart I wear no disguise
If I tried, you'd make believe
That you believed my lies

I'll be there for you,
I'd say it once,
I'd say it twice,
I'd say it a million times more for you,
I love you,
Ill say i anytime,anywhere,everytime,everywhere,
Just for-You

once heard a story straight from the heart
About a girl and how her world began to fall apart
It all started when she met the boy that made her life complete
Just thinking of him made her heart skip a beat
They were the couple everyone wanted to be
There were no imperfections as either one could see
As the weeks passed they fell more in love and were less aware
Of how often life turns out to be unfair
Until one day she finally gave in
She realized there was no way she could win
She said I'm sorry but i have to let you go
As he reached for her hand she pulled away whispering no
When she turned around a tear slid down her cheek
He just stood there speechless, forgetting how to speak
The next few days were the hardest at home
She truly felt she was all alone
Her mom pushed in her face how she had won
Her dad said "i knew he was just another one"
Her sister said "come on you'll be ok"
And her brother just tried to stay away
At school it was like her friends weren't even there
None of them seemed to really care
Her life had no more color, just black and white
Even getting out of bed turned into a fight
Despite their tries things just weren't like before
Then he decided "i don't wanna try anymore"
At that she tried to cut him out
But the more she ignored him the more her feelings began to shout
When she saw him that day she could no longer just walk by
And before she knew it her mouth opened up and out came "hi"
He looked up and said "so now we're talking?"
She just smiled and join his walking
Everyday they talked a little more
And everyday she began to like him a little less then before
As the months passed by she became more and more aware
About how its ok life's unfair
Because eventually everything becomes your past
But your memories will always last
And with that i hope you see
Not all love is meant to be
But hold on and don't give in
Stand tall, hold up your chin
And believe me when i say
The right one will come one day
He'll open your eyes to things you couldn't ever seeI know this because..this is a story all about me...
Would you just listen and please don't say a word,
just yet
,I'd like you to think back to the very first time we met,
How you felt around me?
The memories we shared,
And just remember that once upon a time, you really cared.
Now think about how we parted,
and how much I cried
,But please don't speak,
remember that I never ever lied,
That I told you the honest truth about why we were to split,
But now I'd like you to know that my heart broke bit by bit.
The pain was deep,
unbearable and painful,
for so many years,
I'll never forget all the sadness,
all the uncontrollable tears,
Slowly I am rebuilding my life,
I am content with what I've got,
And although it is hard I am beginning to forget what I have not.
You were a special part of my life that I will never forget,
A part of my life that broke my heart,
but that I don't regret,
You gave me some happy memories that I'll keep in my heart,
Although sometimes I wish that you and I didn't have to part.
You were my first love and my true love,
that will always be so,
After all of the heartache, sadness and never ending pain, I know,
You and I had something special and that will never change,
Because I love you and loving someone else will always seem strange.
Would you just listen and please don't say a word, not ever,
I'd like you to remember that once upon a time, we said forever,
That I had hopes and dreams,
that I was the one who threw them away,
And this is something
I will always regret until my dying day.

Age of six
He loved her so
And everyday
He'd let her know
"I love you Grace"
He'd say each day
She'd just laugh
And run away
Till one day
She turned around
And sat with him
On the playground
"I'm sorry Chris
I don't love you
You'll find someone else
Who loves you too"
Highschool came
They met again
They laughed about
The things back then
They began to date
And fell in love
He got the girl
That he'd dreamed of
But when college came
Everything changed
They were far apart
With lives rearranged
"We'll be fine Grace"
But she had doubt
She turned and said"It won't work out"
"I'm sorry Chris
I can't love you
You'll find someone else
Who loves you too"
In their twenties
They met again
They laughed about
The things back then
He took her hand
They began to dance
Remembering
Their old romance
Two years later
She became his wife
They'd be together
All of their life
They went on a drive
When it was no longer light
They drove down the roads
Of the starry night
The music came on
She started to sing
He whispered, "GraceYou're my everything"
But then suddenly
In one big flash
Headlights shone
As their car crashed
He saw her laying
Down on the ground
He felt his tears
Start rolling down
"Grace..." he cried
She took his hand"I have to leave...
Please understand"
"I love you so muchIt's always been true
But you'll find someone else
And you'll love again too"
"No," he cried"It's always been you
I don't want someone else
I only want you"
And there on that street
Is where he cried
Hugging his love
As she slowly died

Died and forgotten like the words of songs i used to weave.Dont know why im bringing up the past.

2010-06-07T13:20:00.000+08:00

They say i write good poems.

That is why I came to earth.
My assignment from God was very simple.
He said, ' Go thou unto the world.
Take the gift I have given you
and show my children that there is still beauty in my words of rhyme
and music in the magical combinations of words
to make the sounds of the angels in Heaven heard on earth.'
So I am here now.
Before you.
That you may know that God has kept his word and saved poetry.

2010-06-07T06:04:00.001+08:00

The truth is finally out.
All the time ive held ur life in my hands,
im letting u free now.

Spread your wings and fly.

Even if you leave me.

I promise i wont regret.

I know it hurts,

but now you can take the skies without being locked to my chain.

2010-06-06T22:34:00.001+08:00

So its the holidays now, long anticipated holidays.
Things seem so still this few week,
yet time is still racing past.

There goes my old girlfriend, there's another diamond ring
And, uh, all those late night promises I guess they don't mean a thing
So baby, what's the story? Did you find another man?
Is it easy to sleep in the bed that we made?
When you don't look back I guess the feelings start to fade away.
I used to feel your fire
But now it's cold inside
And you're back on the street like you didn't miss a beat,

Tell me what it takes to let you go
Tell me how the pain's supposed to go
Tell me how it is that you can sleep in the night
Without thinking you lost everything that was
good in your life to the toss of the dice?
Tell me what it takes to let you go.

Girl, before I met you I was F.I.N.E. Fine
but your love made me a prisoner, yeah my heart's been doing time
You spent me up like money, then you hung me out to dry
It was easy to keep all your lies in disguise
'Cause you had me in deep with the devil in your eyes

Tell me that you're happy that you're on your own
Tell me that it's better when you're all alone
Tell me that your body doesn't miss my touch
Tell me that my lovin' didn't mean that much
Tell me you ain't dyin' when you're cryin' for me
What it takes?

2010-06-06T22:28:00.000+08:00

Ive decided to return to blogging due to anoymous reasons =).

2009-08-09T23:16:00.001+08:00

我不知不覺
又徘徊在從前
秋風悄悄的呼喚
聽來盡是孤單
落葉的期盼
片片左右為難
心走寂寞攀
跟著飄進黑暗
我不聞不問
也許好過一點
被遺憾關在房間
掙扎隻是拖延
無望的空談
一聲聲的輕嘆
回憶扯不斷
怎麼擺脫糾纏
找不到方向
往彩虹天堂
有你說的愛
在用幸福觸摸憂傷
兩個人
相守直到白發蒼蒼
自由的飛翔在燦爛的星光
有你在我身旁

2009-08-03T17:19:00.000+08:00

ZZZ.
Can u like fcku off?
You're really becoming very irritating,
buzz off,bitch.

I dont have to show u anything,
why?
Cos i dont like you,
bitch.

Its a anyone but me basis,
stay away,
bitch

2009-08-02T20:34:00.000+08:00

i trusted you,
i thought u were my friend.
u said,
hey ill help you hold on to that,
i passed it to you,
and u stabbed me with it.
it hurts,
u bitch...

I helped u look after ur back,
we were supposed to be back-to back,
but when i wasnt looking,
u stole from me,
im empty,
u bitch...

save me,
it hurts.

2009-07-31T21:40:00.000+08:00

Here to post lah duh =.= ...

This few weeks damn sian,
damn stressed lah.
next 4 months also will be damn damn damn stressful. =.=.
Dont ask me why,
cos its none of your bizz =).

Quite fucked up by a certain someone.
Very irritating,
=.=.....

Where was your promise when u had to keep it the most,
where were u when i needed u the most,
rely on you eh,
rubbish...

Keep away fomr me. Filthy.

2009-07-09T19:10:00.001+08:00

>> hwai mun : im fine.
>> Chi En: im gonna tag till ur blog crash =P. Jk.

Torn and tattered.
Im shattered.
Save me from this pain,
help me block the rain...

A million arrows,
a thrillion fellows,
yet no one bellows,
a thousand mellows.

Can u tell me why im alone?

2009-07-06T15:08:00.000+08:00

Theres so many things going on now.
Feeling worried, inferior and a whole lot of emotions i cannot comprehend.

Lately as i lie on bed,
i cant sleep and those nightmares play themselves again.

Gotta make a change
For once in my life
It's gonna feel real good
Gonna make a difference
Gonna make it right
As I turned up the collar on
A favorite winter coat
This wind is blowin' my mind
I see the kids in the street
With not enough to eat
Who am I to be blind
Pretending not to see their needs
A summer's disregard
A broken bottle top
And a one man's soul
They follow each other
On the wind ya' know
'Cause they got nowhere to go
That's why I want you to know
I'm starting with the man in the mirror
I'm asking him to change his ways
And no message could have been any clearer
If you wanna make the world a better place
Take a look at yourself and then make a change----Man in the mirror

2009-07-03T23:16:00.000+08:00

My heart forever lies with you
And I know that you love me too
I want you to know just how I feel
And that this feeling is real.
Tonight I wanna let go of all my fears
Cry all of my uncried tears
Hear all of the things I wanna hear,
Know that you'll always be near.
Because love can be so beautiful
Especially when I'm with you
Kiss me like there's no tomorrow
Just in case tomorrow never comes.
Warmth spreads throughout me at your touch
Love spreads throughout me from your kiss
All I can think is, 'I love you so much
And I want you to know I'm glad I'm yours.
Because love can be so beautiful
But mostly when I'm with you
Kiss me like there's no tomorrow
Just in case tomorrow never comes.

We've reached a level of understanding
Far beyond what I ever imagined
I don't know what I'd do without you,
Your sweet love and lingering kiss.
Because love can be so beautiful
But only when I'm with you
Kiss me like there's no tomorrow
Just in case tomorrow never comes.

You dont know how it feels to miss someone like you
You were my everything,
You were perfect
You made me feel perfect
You were everything
And the only thing I had that was good in my life

Then you are gone
And I'm cheating myself trying to match that love
As I watch you trying to do the same
I know you dont love me anymore
And I know everything is gone

I'm happy it happened
but im sad it has ended
And the thought knowing it will never happen again is devasting
It wasn't meant to be
It wasn't our fate

2009-06-24T17:05:00.000+08:00

Right now u may not know it.
But i love u more than ever =).

2009-06-13T11:27:00.001+08:00

Phone spoiled,using lousy one now =/

2009-06-13T11:15:00.000+08:00

MY PHONE SPOILED..

2009-06-11T23:35:00.000+08:00

The road is bumpy and im gonna fall asleep.

So heres something to tide over my hols in Paris.

Lately somethings been bothering me,(like who cares anyway)

O.o.

But thats not important meh =P.

These few days quite boring,

went surfboarding,

almost drowned.

-.-

Anyway,

even though its the holidays now,

there arent many events to talk about.

So i decided to do some "reflecting".

But thats not important too " skip , skip ".

i know im crapping now,

im jsut preventing myself from falling asleep =.=.

Scientist has been trying to reverse time right,

so here's a little pondering for you guys to think about.

It is known as the grandfather Paradox.

There are many dangerous flaws of time travelling,

one good example would be the granfather paradox as i had mentioned,

he grandfather paradox is a proposed paradox of time travel, first described by the science fiction writer René Barjavel in his 1943 book Le Voyageur Imprudent (The Imprudent Traveller).^[1] The paradox is this: suppose a man traveled back in time and killed his biological grandfather before the latter met the traveler's grandmother. As a result, one of the traveler's parents (and by extension, the traveller himself) would never have been conceived. This would imply that he could not have travelled back in time after all, which in turn implies the grandfather would still be alive, and the traveller would have been conceived, allowing him to travel back in time and kill his grandfather. Thus each possibility seems to imply its own negation, a type of logical paradox.---> from wikipedia

But suppose a man could travel backwords,and has killed his father/grandfather,

and is able to return to the future,

that would mean that he has no background,

also known as a child of

sacred birth.

But in a scenario like this,

one has to remember that if the grandfather is dead,

it breaks the chain of conceiving.

And the time traveller himself,

would no longer exist.

But if he is even able to return to the future,

then time travel itself would be considered sucessful,

but if we put it in another way,

if he has time travelled to the past

and got stuck there.

And spread the technology in that era,

would that lead to a increased speed in which a versatile time travelling machine would be constructed?

But that is,

of course,

until scientist has found a way to defy the laws of physics,

and to propel the human body at a speed of light.

Or they could simply find a wormhole,

or a blackhole,

or better known as scientist as a quantum physics.

But entering a wormhole has many cons by itself,

such as not being able to control the year or era which the user has been transported to.

Jsut some things to keep you guys busy to think about while im gone,

i already know the answers haha.Will answer u guys when im back from paris.

2009-06-11T14:35:00.000+08:00

Superman.

Wish that I could cry
Fall upon my knees
Find a way to lie
About a home Ill never see

It may sound absurd...
but dont be naive
Even heroes have the right to bleed
I may be disturbed...
but wont you concede
Even heroes have the right to dream
Its not easy to be me.

2009-06-10T01:05:00.000+08:00

1. Real name > Lee Feng Qi
2. Nickname > er.none =).
3. Married > Nope
4. Male or Female > Male.

5. Highschool > Juniour in Kss High =D.

6. College > Nope

7. Short or long hair > Long! =).But not tat long X_X

8. Are you a health freak > nah!

9.Height > Taller than shareen.

10. Do you have a crush on someone > O.o,lets play guessing games =).

11. Do you like yourself > Nah absolutely detest myself.

12. Piercings > Left ear! But my piercing healed cos i didnt realise my stud dropped off until 3 days later when the wound almost closed =/.

13. Righty or Lefty > Left.

FIRST'S

14. surgery > P3.Broken leg =).

15. piercing(s) > ...

16. person you see in the morning > Eh.the first person i see in the lrt station.

17. award > Hmm.lets play guessing games.

18. sport you joined > Soccer.

19. pet > O.o,when i was a small kid.A horse lol.XD.

20. vacation > hmm.30+

21. concert > Lost count.

22. crush> Guessing games again =).

CURRENTLY

23. Eating > You.

24. Drinking > Your blood =/.

25. I'm about to > EAT UR ARSE.

YOUR FUTURE

26. Want kids > Nope

27. Want to get married > Guessing games.

28. Careers in mind > Actor/weapons engineer/doctor/policeman.

WHICH ONE IS BETTER

29. Lips or eyes > Lips.

30. Hugs or kisses > Both.

31. Shorter or taller > Taller.

32. Romantic or spontaneous >Romantic.

33. Sensitive or loud > Sensitive.

34. Trouble maker or hesitant > Both are fine.

HAVE YOU EVER

35. Kissed a stranger > Kissed ur mum.=).

36. Drank bubbles > When i was a kid.I ATE BUBBLES.

37. Lost glasses/contacts > =.=,duh.

38. Ran away from home > thrice.

39. Liked someone younger > yah

40. Liked someone older > YES I LIKE SOMEONE BETTER.

41. Broken someone's heart > Not sure if his heart is broken.I think i only broke his hand =/.

42. Been arrested > Yah many times.Had to bribe the cop.OF COS NOT LAH.=.=

43. Cried when someone died > LOL.I DANCE WHEN SOMEONE DIE CAN.=/.i dont cry .

44. Liked a friend > =.=,if u dont like a friend.gosh,then its not a friend.

DO YOU BELIEVE IN

45. Yourself > Always do.

46. Miracles > DEfinately

47. Heaven > Sure.

48. Santa Claus > he owes me 13 presents.SO i dont mind.

49. Angels > Definately

50. Do you believe in God > He's watching all the time.

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY

51. Is there one person you want to be with right now >Yah.So much =).

Dont know why so many people doing this.Decided to do also.

2009-06-08T15:46:00.000+08:00

Cropped up with lots off stuff now-a-days.
Kinda feeling stupid,
low and despondent.

I really wish all this things would go away,
and life would pick up from where it left.

Somehow things just shoved lots of trouble at me.
And loneliness has become my only friend again.

i wanna sleep but those images haunt me.
i'm trying to stay awake,
but those nightmares are draqging me back.

i fell down and cant get up.

Lost of ideas on what to do.

2009-06-04T17:52:00.000+08:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4XkD5sJwwrE

Omg this video.
One heck of a laugh.

2009-06-03T14:06:00.000+08:00

Haies,
2 days after the SSC interview.

I found it rather tough,
it was fun,
but there were many requirements i had to meet.

Dont think i would stand a chance to enter SSC haha.

Maybe thats cause i had my mind occupied with someone on that day.
Couldnt give my hundred percent.

I've thought for so long,

But today to that one person i want to tell to.

I'm sorry i lied in the first place,
and i know i shouldnt be asking for forgival.

And i wont anymore,
i think u have the right to hate me =).

Cos in life,
one small mistake can cause u
one big damage.

Irreversible,
and
impossible to avoid.

So i guess right now all i can do is,

To go on my knees and pray,
for the day,
to come. =)

2009-06-01T23:13:00.000+08:00

feeling sick worthless and feel like banging my head on the wall now,
its the hols but sudden turns of event made me feel,
that its less than relaxing.

Thanks Danne,ya rock ^^.
For all those comforting words and
telling me not to give up.

Just a few words to say to u guys out there,

Firstly to Danne,
Youre the second nicest girl i know,
you're awesome,
thanks for saving me everything i almost drowned.

Secondly,
to Danny,
danny u have tha best sister in the world.
Youre great too,
haha,
change ur hairstyle =.=,
the teachers are gonna give ya big trouble.

2009-05-31T14:58:00.000+08:00

I started to dream but
the nightmares began,
those words i said,
ended today.

So maybe tonight,
the stars are bright,
but the moon is hung over the sky,

So i wont let go,
till the night is cold,
but im so sorry for everything.

But tonight this ends,
and everything dies,
tmr is new,
but the love is true.

So i guess its fine,
just how i like,
those lies that brought u through.

So its the only way,
where nothing could bring those feelings away,
ihad to use those words,
where they had to hurt most.

But tonight as the feelings melt,
so does my heart and soul,
so girl i bid u goodbye,
for a time where and palce where all those dead go,

ive dragged it long ive dragged it far,
but today it has to end.
Those years i spent in happiness,
today i end with no regrets,

I'm just really glad,
that i havent ,

cos ure still alive....... =)

2009-05-03T20:43:00.000+08:00

The rain muffles my footsteps as i run towards you,
not caring about the branches that whip at my face,
always pressing on just so i could touch ur face...

Maybe this is love.

My heart bleeds through my pen.
It hurts not to be let in.
Patience tends to wear thin.
So I Count back from ten

You remind me I'm just a friend.
Yet I've been there and back again.
Yes I would stay until the end.
So I Count back from ten.

I see your lost thoughts within.
How do I help, were do I begin.
I'm waiting so that you can amend.
So I count back from ten.

but then i remember,

She walks in beauty, like the night
Of cloudless climes and starry skies;
And all that's best of dark and bright
Meet in her aspect and her eyes:
Thus mellow'd to that tender light
Which heaven to gaudy day denies.

One shade the more, one ray the less,
Had half impair'd the nameless grace
Which waves in every raven tress,
Or softly lightens on her face;
Where thoughts serenely sweet express
How pure, how dear their dwelling place.

And on that cheek, and on that flow,
So soft, so calm, yet eloquent,
The smiles that win, the tints that glow,
But tell of days in goodness spent,
A mind at peace with all below,
A heart whose love is innocent.

2009-02-15T21:23:00.000+08:00

Hi peeps, have been busy for past 3 weeks.
What should i update hmm?

Common test is coming right up,i may not update till then.
Good luck for everyone kaes?
its an important year for everyone =).